The Real Me

Inventory of being

I am Krystal
I have aged for nineteen years though it feels like longer.

I am an old soul.

I should have been born during a time of love of nature in the mountains where electricity couldn't reach.

The outer shell of my being is wrong to me sometimes I look in the mirror and am surprised.

Sometimes I see a pretty girl with dirty blonde hair, pale complexion, high cheekbones, aqua marine eyes with a white smile but I feel like a child.

Where did the years go? I spent them in my room hiding from the world.

I am a girl desperately trying to become a woman, a Christian to the core, and a romantic all the time.

I love being in love and everything that entails.

I am the daughter of a strong woman that sometimes goes retro when a man is involved.

I like to open my heart and let loose the spirit inside, through song and dance.

I love God above all things. My other half falls under him, though we have not sealed our love with the forever kiss.

I hope to change the world through research and medicine.

I believe that the Lord and love is all one could ever need.

I know I am in love and I know the periodic table, of course.
I don’t understand how someone can want war and personal possessions.

My mother and sister I look up to because they are strong, and one day I hope to be. As a good Christian I try to lead a life like Jesus.

I hate war. The fact that people kill over pieces of paper kills me inside.

I could not bear to live a life without my Lord and savior.

I spend too much on people that don’t love me back.

If I had all the money in the world I'd help my mom, but I would still be me living by the river wearing a free flowing dress.

I wish there was no lies, that one could trust everybody.

I sometimes shake and get dizzy; I am an introvert working at being a social butterfly.

I plan to be a doctor of medical science and research how to help social disorders as I could not be helped when I was a child.

I am honest, but I trust no one. I love. I love so much I hate it.

My name is Krystal, and this is the real me.